Actor Terry Crews is shedding light on a pornography addiction that took over his life and nearly ended his marriage.
“Pornography, it really, really messed up my life in a lot of ways,” Crews said in his first video, adding that day turned into night while he watched. “My wife was literally like, ‘I don’t know you anymore. I’m out of here.’ And that changed me.”
Crews said he went to rehab for his addiction about six or seven years ago to get the help he needed.
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In the second video of his series, Crews devoted time to answering fan questions about how he overcame his addiction. The actor and former NFL player candidly talked about therapy and battling depression.
“I went to therapy, big time. When I went into therapy I didn’t know what was going on, how to beat it, I couldn’t do it alone,” Crews said, adding that he focused on becoming more aware. “I had to realize when I was depressed. I had to realize when I was sad about something or when I was feeling lonely. Because those were the times I was more likely to use pornography.”
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Crews also said that he had to overcome shame and a big sense of entitlement to get better.
“I felt the world owed me something. I felt like my wife owed me sex,” Crews said. “I felt that everybody owed me. And when you have a sense of entitlement, it’s extremely dangerous.”
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Crews mended his relationship with his wife, telling HuffPost Live last year that the two completed a sex fast that left them “more in love” than ever.
“Ninety days — no sex, all relationship, all talk, all cuddle,” the actor said. “I found that at the end of that 90 days … I knew who she was, and it wasn’t about ‘Let’s go out because I know I’m gonna get some sex later.’ It was like, ‘Let’s go because I want to talk to you. I want to know you.'”