Abel Abel

I told myself everything was going to be fine, but I lied

These tears are real and these Smiles are real too.
I must confess this chapter is hard, very very hard.
I’m writing to you from an open wound, starring directly at the scars that has define my thought in the last few years.

Like me, you may have wonder the cruelty that exists in our World,
the pain and hurt that we endure in our quest to find happiness,
and the undiluted lies they keep telling us when they ‘politics’ their way to capture our mandate for their pockets.

Like me, you may have wondered about the racial divide. Are you black enough or white enough to deny this?
You may have wondered about the whole South – North arguments, the Feminism struggle, the gay and lesbian ‘sentence’ and sometimes you may have paused to ask yourself a question, are we still humans?

Like me, you may have seen the malnutrition problem , the class divide, the poverty crisis ,the unemployment challenge and maybe sometimes you wish you can just change everything and make the World better.

Please, I don’t blame you for anything,
I blame myself for buying their lies,
I blame myself for believing in their lies,
I blame myself for letting their lies to destroy my happiness.

Let me confess:
This is me speaking,
I used to tell myself that everything was going to be fine,
I’m sorry dear me, I lied,
Everything is fine already, that’s the truth,
I’m sorry for not being grateful to God for his daily love and blessing.
I’m sorry for lying to you all this while,
Don’t expect, just enjoy the moment, everything is just fine.