By Michaela Rollings
The moment you know that you are falling in love with someone is one of the most exciting and terrifying moments in existence. Falling in love with someone is scary because, for the most part, it is completely out of your control. The heart wants what the heart wants. When the elation, the nerves, the butterflies, the anxiety, and the euphoria all come together, somehow you just know.
You know you’re falling when time goes by in fast forward and you desperately wish there was a pause button on life so you could be with them forever, frozen in a perfect moment.
You know you’re falling when you forget you’re hungry and all you can think about is how amazing the other person is, and when you can sit in silence with the other person and feel like it’s the best conversation that you’ve ever had.
Silence is one of the most powerful things, as is communicating without actually having to say anything. And you know you’re falling when you wake up and the other person is the first thing that crosses your mind and the thought of them immediately makes you smile.
You know you’re falling when you can actually fall sleep with them in your bed. Especially if you can fall asleep while they snore, and if you can share the covers. You know when you want to know every single thing about the other person. What house they grew up in, how many cousins they have, what sports they played, what movies they hate, what their favorite restaurant is.
You’re falling when you trust them enough to tell them your deepest, darkest secret, and you know they won’t run away. You feel comfortable enough to be at your most vulnerable, and you know they will try and protect you from your demons and fears. You’re falling when all you want to talk about is the person you’re falling for. How sweet they are. How caring they are. How similar you two are. You want to tell the world everything about them and inform everyone of how you two first met.
You know you’re falling when you start staring off into the distance in class or in a meeting or in your office and you think about all of the ways you two are absolutely perfect together. The more you think about it, the more you want to shout it all from the top of a mountain.
You know you’re falling when all the other relationships that came before become vague and blurry fixtures of your past. You no longer need to hold onto the disintegrating love from your failed relationships, to the hurt and wounds and resentment. You learn how to let go, if you haven’t before. When you realize that holding yourself back because the fear of being hurt all over again isn’t fair to someone new. Because they’re not your past. Instead, they could be your future.
You know you’re falling in love with someone when you know. All of these things can be signs, but the moment you realize you actually love the other person, you just know. It hits you like a ton of bricks. It knocks the air out of your lungs. And it’s the best feeling in the world.