By Holly Riordan
He hates confrontation and he hates rejection. He doesn’t want to tell you that he’s only looking for a fling when he knows you want something serious, because he’s worried about pushing you away. And that’s the last thing he wants. He wants to keep you close.
He’s good at reading people, so he says all of the things he knows you want to hear. He plays pretend, acting like that perfect guy you’ve been daydreaming about since you were a little girl. But secretly, he’s not that guy at all. He’s just a good actor.
He lies to you, because he does whatever it takes to get what he wants. He doesn’t care about who he hurts, as long as he ends up happy. As long as he gets his way. As long as he gets to have his fun with you.
He doesn’t actually care about you. He
never cared about you. You were just an escape for him, a way for him to forget about what a crappy person he is — because you looked at him like he was someone worth loving. Of course, you were looking at a lie.
He’s the kind of person who only cares about himself. He’ll step over his coworkers to get a raise. He’ll lie to get his friends into trouble. He’ll cheat on girls who would have stayed loyal forever. He’ll do whatever it takes to get what he wants.
Your heartache doesn’t matter to him. He doesn’t stay up at night, feeling guilty over how badly he hurt you. If anything, he’s happy that he was successfully able to manipulate you. That he was able to pull off his act.
He’s not ashamed of using you. He’s proud of it.
And he’s going to do it again with another girl. He’s going to play her the same way he played you.
He’s going to leave a trail of shattered hearts behind him, because girls like you are too trusting. You believe in true love, in first impressions, in the kindness of strangers.
But it’s not your fault you fell for him. He gave you every reason to let him into your life.
You can’t let boys like him ruin you. Don’t let your experience with him convince you to keep your guard up, to shield your heart so it never gets hurt again.
You might hate yourself right now, you might feel silly and stupid and gullible, but it’s actually a good thing that you think positively. That you see the good in people. That you believe boys are exactly who they say they are.
When you find the right person, your open heart will pay off. The trust you have for your forever person will create a strong, healthy relationship. The type of relationship that your lying, manipulative ex will never experience for himself.
Don’t hate yourself for trusting him, for listening to your heart’s longings. Hate him for fucking with the wrong girl.
Originally appeared at Thought Catalog