Abel Abel

Once I Was Heartbroken…

I held my phone so tight and went through my playlist.
I saw ‪#‎HolyGrail‬ by JayZ. I listened to it for 3 straight days indoors, in a dark room without talking to anyone and even eating.
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On the 4th day, I was very fine. I took myself out, I wore my pink signature lipstick and dressed like an old sexy maid.
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The following week while listening to my songs, holy grail played and I got so irritated by it. I didn’t waste time, I deleted the song immediately off my phone.
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I didn’t like the memories holy grail came with. I didn’t like the picture memories it came with.
I was happy then and holy grail was bringing bad memories which would make me sad and the era of being sad was over.
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One time in 2012, something bad happened to me. It made me depressed. I checked my phone and downloaded a song by Austine Mahone. In 2days, I was up and kicking. I liked that the song helped my mood. But after that session, I deleted the song. I didn’t want it to bring back old and black memories.
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I’ve observed this about me.
So many good songs that helped me when I was down and after they served their purpose, I delete them and moved on.
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So while others use songs to help them get over whatever bad mood they are in, I avoid songs. Because I love songs so much and deleting a good song because of life experiences always made me feel bad.
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So many songs I’ve lost count of that I deleted.
And thing is, no matter how I try to move on from these songs, anytime I hear them, my mood changes.
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I might just be laughing and next, I’m moody and keeping to myself.
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So it’s like this, take it as LIFE when someone(a friend) leaves you. Most times, they came to you for a purpose. And once that purpose is served, they leave. Take it that, someone needs you at one point in time.
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Don’t feel bad when someone you used to be friends with stop being friends with you.
You see, life happened.
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Take it as a compliment. True fact is, even if it seems they have moved on from you, they haven’t.
Once your name is heard or seen, those memories shared still lingers.
Whether good or bad. It stays with them forever.
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‪#‎smiles‬
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‪#‎WalksOutAndFlipsHair‬